Crash and Burn – Not Feeling Very Writer-y

Sometimes I masquerade as a writer. The costume is cheap…jeans and a t-shirt. Rips optional.

Other times, I almost feel like a writer.

And then there are the times like today. I know I have written. But what does it all mean? If you write every day, are you a writer? And surely you’re an author if you have books published, no?

I’ve been reading over my words and wondering what it is I’m doing. I think it’s time to attempt an outline again. I feel like I have run out of things to write about. I struggled a bit at the Muskoka Novel Marathon a couple of weeks back. I went from speed writing early on to trying to dig up stuff to write about. I ended up writing AND THEN THIS HAPPENED AND THEN THIS HAPPENED AND THEN THIS HAPPENED. It no longer felt smooth. The flow got cut off somewhere during the weekend. I don’t like struggling with words and ideas. It’s not something I usually do. I am going to attempt to outline a novel. I have failed miserably at this in the past. I eventually said that it wasn’t for me…but now I’m pretty sure it just wasn’t for me then. Let the experiment begin!

In the meantime, I’m kind of feeling more like a grandfather than a writer. So…here’s a picture of my grandson, Edward. I took it while we were at the park yesterday.

edward

By Kevin Craig

Author, Poet, Playwright. Author of The Camino Club, Billions of Beautiful Hearts, and Book of Dreams, all from Duet Books, the LGBTQ Young Adult imprint of Chicago Review Press. Other books: Pride Must Be A Place, Half Dead & Fully Broken, Burn Baby Burn Baby, The Reasons, Sebastian's Poet, and Summer on Fire.

6 comments

  1. Just like any artist, writers ponder and then create. You can’t help it. It’s not an occupation; it’s more than that. A writer is more than what anyone can put down on paper and sell. A true writer is passionate about what they do. Congrats on being a grandfather! Isn’t it great? 😀

  2. Thanks so much for stopping by, both of you. And, yes…being a grandfather sort of rocks my world. (-: Diane…so true. When we are not putting the words down, we are percolating them. (-: Thank you!

  3. Kevin, I struggle with the exactly same thing. In fact your opening sentence describes me to a T… sometimes.

    Now, I have nowhere near the writing pedigree that you have, but sometimes I find when the words feel clunky, or the ideas seem forced, they seem that way only to me. I think maybe it’s because we try too hard sometimes.

    In sports (mostly baseball) they say that a player can push too hard when in a slump and it makes things worse. I think you’ve got the right idea. Try something different. In your case it is revisiting outlining.

    Again with the sports; some writers are ‘streaky’ hitters. They go on long tears of writing but that is often followed up with long stretches of silence. I never said not writing, because like Diane said, ideas are percolating all the time.

    A day in the park with your grandson, does it get any better?

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